newness :]

So I haven't really been on in a while. Actually, I haven't been on in quite a while. Here's the jist of what's happened so far...
I've moved to the coast to live with my aunt, uncle, and cousin so I can go to school and actually have a life. If I get accepted into SCI (for cosmetology) I start on October 20th. I applied at Party City yesterday. Hopefully I get the job. *crosses fingers, closes eyes* I'm still trying to organize my room and get unpacked; I'm almost there. :) I went to Fort Sam Cemetery to see my Dad. No matter what, that is always one of the hardest things to do in my life. It always has been and it always will be. I love being here with this part of my family. I can finally know the truth of everything and I don't have to live surrounded by lies wrapped in pain. I can find out who I am and who I'm becoming by myself. :) October 4th was the eighth year anniversary of my father's death. They say that time heals all wounds, but I know that it really doesn't, and I have found many people that agree with me. It never heals, but you do get stronger. I myself am finally starting to find some semblance of peace. I can only hope that my soul grows and strenthens with the love and care of those around me and that I can open up fully to accept that. I wish to find the same joy and happiness that I see in those around me. There is one thing that keeps me strong and helps me daily, and we should all remember what that is. Hope. :)
"Hope is what guides me. It is what gets me through the day and especially the night..."